Grief

I was watching a show and a Black Woman said 
" I feel like I've been grieving all of my life." 

*insert idris alba hm meme here*

I began to weep immediately.
Good Lord.
I don't know when's the last time a single line hit me like that but that one punched me in my gut.

I am so exhausted.
I feel like I have been grieving all of my life.

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